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Oct. 16th, 2023 02:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
trar so MJ's beds are drying in the sun.
I decided to open up the dryer and of course the belt is fine so it's probably something beyond my skillset. in between panicking over MJ and the dryer I haven't had time to dwell on my vaccines and honestly I feel fine? tg. that second dose hit me so bad that I had trouble driving home from hospice. I remember that. I actually misplaced my vaccine card and didn't find it for months (luckily I was able to print my records online. eventually.)
I need to go back and finagle the dryer to I can take the drum out, check the blower and rollers before I fucking give up and go buy a drying rack.
the hardest part is getting on the ground and then backup again. I had to crawl on my belly which was fine, but I almost didn't think I could haul myself up.
MJ parked herself in the closet with no bed. she's laying on a puppy pad. which I had thought about tossing and I'm glad I have plenty because I must have used a dozen on vomit today. and apparently Domenica said she also cleaned up vomit. tho idk with her.
I gave her cigarette money. but I finally started signing documents to list the house so as much as showing it will FUCKING SUCK I feel SO HOPEFUL we are moving forward!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I mean everything is terrible and we are all dying but WOW am I ready to move on.
all of this with my face still all weird from being bashed in. it is still swollen and numb but also sore. and I have fresh mosquito bites. every moment is torture.
I am getting zero work done.
I noticed Domenica threw out some expensive shit from the kitchen. good, let her think she is being sneaky while she helps me declutter.
at least I did run a bunch of errands. and second time's the charm--idk why my tires didn't fill properly yesterday, but today I was able to get the pressure light to turn off.
I know I need to eat real food but I am not in the mood. im not even in the mood to E X I S T rn.
I am def exhausted and it is not because of the vaccine for once. im just wearied by the weight of the world.
I decided to open up the dryer and of course the belt is fine so it's probably something beyond my skillset. in between panicking over MJ and the dryer I haven't had time to dwell on my vaccines and honestly I feel fine? tg. that second dose hit me so bad that I had trouble driving home from hospice. I remember that. I actually misplaced my vaccine card and didn't find it for months (luckily I was able to print my records online. eventually.)
I need to go back and finagle the dryer to I can take the drum out, check the blower and rollers before I fucking give up and go buy a drying rack.
the hardest part is getting on the ground and then backup again. I had to crawl on my belly which was fine, but I almost didn't think I could haul myself up.
MJ parked herself in the closet with no bed. she's laying on a puppy pad. which I had thought about tossing and I'm glad I have plenty because I must have used a dozen on vomit today. and apparently Domenica said she also cleaned up vomit. tho idk with her.
I gave her cigarette money. but I finally started signing documents to list the house so as much as showing it will FUCKING SUCK I feel SO HOPEFUL we are moving forward!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I mean everything is terrible and we are all dying but WOW am I ready to move on.
all of this with my face still all weird from being bashed in. it is still swollen and numb but also sore. and I have fresh mosquito bites. every moment is torture.
I am getting zero work done.
I noticed Domenica threw out some expensive shit from the kitchen. good, let her think she is being sneaky while she helps me declutter.
at least I did run a bunch of errands. and second time's the charm--idk why my tires didn't fill properly yesterday, but today I was able to get the pressure light to turn off.
I know I need to eat real food but I am not in the mood. im not even in the mood to E X I S T rn.
I am def exhausted and it is not because of the vaccine for once. im just wearied by the weight of the world.
